February 21, 2015

We did some shopping at Sam’s Club today.  It took us right back to one of the first trips we ever made with little Selah June.  When she was just a week old, we tried getting out of the house by going to Sam’s.  The second we walked into the store, we knew it was a bad idea.  The GERMS!  People were like walking zombies… magnets drawn to the baby…. mindlessly grabbing at her with their grubby disgusting hands.

This time was much better.  She was a sweetheart and was so good while we shopped.

Later….

We saw a fierce display of emotion in Miss Selah June this evening.  While Ab and Brock were trying to deal with the boys, Jeremy held Jules for a few minutes.  I would have held him, but I was holding Selah June.  When SJ caught sight of her daddy holding another baby, she absolutely had core meltdown in front of my very eyes.  Her lower lip pouted out.  Her eyes swelled with huge tears.  Her face turned a shade of red.  And she lost it.  She cried!  SJ doesn’t cry very often over very much at all.  I told Jeremy to leave the room… that he was upsetting her.  Even after he left, she just cried and cried.  Her heart was broken.  Her daddy had traded her in for some other baby, and she couldn’t handle the terrible rejection.  Who was that other kid? Why was he so special?  Where did he come from?  Her little mind was just racing with rage and grief.

After several minutes, I traded babies.  Jeremy swept Selah June up in his arms and tried to snuggle her.  He sang SEVERAL songs to her before he could get a smile out of her.  She was not happy with him, and she wasn’t about to just let him waltz back into the picture.