March 23, 2016

i left this morning for my last conference of the 2015/2016 academic year.  Jeremy and I just got back from a short weekend getaway.  Consequently, I feel really sad leaving Selah June again so soon.  Grammy and Grandpa took me to the airport, and SJ cried when I kissed her bye bye.  It broke my heart.  She’s been very emotional the last few days because of her teething.  I know in my head that that’s what’s going on.  (Last night was a brutal gnashing of teeth all through dinner and bath time.). But it still makes me question my choices and rethink my priorities when I hear that little voice sound so sad.

We we also accomplished all the steps necessary to put our house on the market.  When I went to leave the house this morning, the sign was in the yard.  So many emotions surged through my mind and heart.  That’s MY house!  Jeremy and I built that house together in the middle of a really dark patch when nothing we invested in yielded anything of value.  I picked out everything in that house.  It reflects me.  Selah June’s nursery is in that house.  All the emotions I experienced in anticipation of her arrival.  It’s a lot.